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Hey there abandoned journal! [30 Apr 2009|08:42pm]
[ mood | smug ]

Lots of shit has happened in the last 2 years. I might get into it some other time though.

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An update...a year and a half later! [12 Sep 2007|10:04am]
Andre and I got married on May 26th, 2007. Yay! Go us! ^_^
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ftdestjuihgfdersrdhoiujuihfawad [31 Mar 2006|03:08pm]
[ mood | bored ]


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Even more entertainment... [30 Mar 2006|05:13pm]
[ mood | amused ]


If she keeps this up, I might just have to piss her off by hitting on her.

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This is why I don't like girls... [29 Mar 2006|05:58pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Alright, so, the other day I decide to contact Chris Pate. Mainly to say hi and catch up. So, I add him to my buddy list and this morning I get an offline message from his girlfriend ( jade_elf ) on his SN.

The first line is what she said to me, the rest is the continuation of the conversation later on in the day:

lostcontrolvocals: Hey dumb, nasty ugly whore... how about you stay the fuck away from my boyfreind. thanks.
thekilleremu: Holy fucking shit!!! Some one has serious jealousy issues! First off, I'm one of Chris's online friends from a few years ago. We kinda lost touch because my boyfriend at the time also had jealousy issues and wouldn't let me talk to other guys. Now that I've been out that horrendous and controling relationship for a while, I've been trying to reconnect with some old friends. Male AND female. I'm currently engaged the most wonderful man and I'm not seeking anything more than friendship with Chris. So, please, CALM THE FUCK DOWN!!!!
chris pate: not intrestred. maybe you should get some real freinds, kthx piss off.
thekilleremu: wait...this is Kat, right?
chris pate: yeah, how do you know my name and what do you want? im sorry im such a bitch but chris has a problem with talking to girls
thekilleremu: i know your name from Chris's LJ....what kind of "problem" does he have with girls?.....and what does his problems have to do with my personality and intentions?
chris pate: Because quite frankly, I dont him talking to girls who he dated or was intrested in.
chris pate: *like
chris pate: I'm sick of internet girlfreinds
thekilleremu: i understand...but still, him having trouble flirting with chicks online doen't give you a right to totally insult me when i've done nothing wrong....
thekilleremu: take it out on him...not me
chris pate: whatever, I dont need your life stpry and some lecture. goodbye

Ok, she calls me a dumb nasty ugly whore for absolutely no reason at all, and she doesn't expect me to be upset. She thinks I'm "lecturing" her because I'm not taking her shit. She doesn't even fucking apologize, knowing that I'm not even trying to get at her man.

So, after all of that, she posts this ( http://christopherpate.livejournal.com/33950.html ) on Chris's LJ.

I mean, come on! She's so insecure and she takes it out on other chicks instead of taking it up with her man. He's doing wrong and she bitches at the girls who try to talk to him. Whether or not the girls are trying to "hook-up", that's just ignorant.

Even if I thought some girl talking to Andre was suspicious, I'd first talk to her like an adult and she what she wanted. If something was going on, and if she didn't know about me, then it would be Andre's fault 100%! If she did know about me, then I'd still deal with him first!

Oh well. This girl is crazy and irrational. What else am I to expect from a girl who can't spell simple words like "American" and "Equal".

That's all. Ta!

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An update...for Germaine... [09 Mar 2006|08:07pm]
[ mood | apathetic ]

Ummmmmm......the only good thing in my life right now are the people in it. That's about it. Other than that, life sucks. That's all. Ta!

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Ok, here's the deal... [06 Jan 2006|01:20pm]
[ mood | calm ]

I'm only gonna keep this journal so I can post in communities. I know I've said this once before in this journal, but, I'm for real this time. I have another journal, a better journal, to post my personal stuff in. That's all. Ta!

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Wow, it's been a long time... [02 Jan 2006|11:06am]
[ mood | rejuvenated ]

Ok, a lot has changed in the past 7 months.

1) I broke up with Pat and moved in with Andre back in July.
2) Andre proposed to me on Xmas!

That's about it really. I don't know if I'm gonna keep this journal. I've got a new one.

http://www.livejournal.com/users/miss_mouth ...go there to get details.


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The straw that broke the camel's back....or however that saying goes. [22 May 2005|02:06am]
[ mood | I'm outta my fucking mind! ]

Well, today, it was, I don't know, a day I guess. It started out nice, then, rather quickly, turned to shit. I'm really not gonna talk about the good part right now(haha, do I ever talk about good things on this journal?). I'll post some pics of it later. So, yeah, after the really shitty part of the day, Pat took me to books-a-million to buy a book. I bought The Addictive Personality by Craig Nakken. I read the first 11 pages and, so far, it fits me to a fucking tee! I guess I'm addicted to cheating...or something. *shrugs*

So, Andre, I'm really sorry. I just keep dragging you down further and further into my madness. You deserve better. You deserve a nice girl with a good head on her shoulders. A girl with a good reputation, not a slut, like me. I'm a bit high, so, I'm getting somewhat lost here. I just care about you so much! I don't wanna see you get hurt(more than you're hurting now anyway). I just know that if you get with me, you're gonna get hurt really bad. I really don't know what to do right now. I don't wanna stop talking to you, but, I can't do this anymore. I can't keep on cheating and cheating and cheating. Hurting, hurting, and hurting. I don't know, it's like, if I get help and end up coming back to you, it would be like I was getting help for you, and not to really help myself. I'm sorry I've disappointed you. I love you and I don't want to ruin your life. I'm such a crazy shit. I don't wanna nice guy like you to get mixed up with me.I'm not sure if this thing is goodbuy or what. I just want you to read this so you can see what's on my mind right now. I feel like such an asshole right now. Look at me! I've been getting high all night, ruining people's lives, and....other thing I can't think of because I'm turing into a dumb fucking stoner. Yay, Mary J is totally the shyte!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hahahahahahah!!!!!!!! I'm fucking gone now. "Stop! I think you're breaking my neckme!" - Kip. Ok, I'm a cool scenester now. I've quoted Napolean Dynamite. It's probably not even quoting this right. Man, I suck!

Ok, I need to control myself.

Andre!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need to say goodbye. I just wish I could do this while sober.....and while on the phone, so you can say good bye too. Well, I guess you can leave a comment on here. Don't leave a short one either. It needs to be epic! It needs to be uber long, because, this is goodbye, and, I need to know everything that's in you soul!!!!!!!!!! Ok, I'm sounding like a soap opera or something. Everything needs to be dramatic! ^_^

Wow, this is a long entry. I'm saying all of this garbage, and yet, I'm saying absolutely nothing. It's almost 3 in the morning. I'm tired. I'm not tired. EEK! High at 3 in the morning. Horrible! I should be ashamed of myself! Everyone else is.

Man, today, fucking, grrr and a half! I don't want violence. I don't want everyone to know about my fucking slutty garbage shit fuck piss! I don't want you mom to know I'm a skank. I don't want my brother to know. I don't want my grandma to know. My brother and grandma already dislike me enough as is. I really don't wanna disappoint your family either. All of youse guys are nice people. You don't need trash like me in your life. I'm nothing. I'm really just a peice of shit. Ask anyone, they'll tell you. Shit, even adrianne knows how much of a fucking whore I am.

I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Knowing the way I am, I shouldn't have let things go this far. I'm such a fucking cunt. AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't fucking stop. ngyukwefgyiygvfk8trehtiyfghyuj I'm gonna breakmn the key board. I'm jufttrds .....,...ya kniow. gkfkubhjcfh




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Ok, where the fuck do I start? [20 May 2005|11:46pm]
[ mood | determined ]

Ummmmmmmm. I know some of you readers have heard things. Are they true? Well, it depends on what you've heard. :-P Anywho, I'm kinda stressed out. I'm on the rag and I'm very fucking emotional. I'm gonna see a shrink. I'm tired of being crazy. I'm tired of messing up my life. I'm tired of hating myself. I'm tired of being evil. I'm tired of being selfish. I'm tired of hurting other people.....

Ok, I guess I'm gonna be blunt about this. It seems that everyone knows anyway. I've fallen for Andre. He's fallen for me. I wanna be with him. His mum and sibs like me. I broke up with Pat. I haven't left the house yet because of the lease and money. It wouldn't be very nice of me to leave him broke and homeless. Then again, what I'm doing isn't very nice anyways. Pat wants me to stay. He's saying things that I don't wanna hear, but, some of it makes sense. I really can't keep going from guy to guy and hurting people. Though, I still wanna be with Andre. So, I guess what I'm gonna do is get some help before I go any further with him. I wanna be fixed first before I do anything with anybody. Yes, that means Pat too. I need to be away from both of them for a while so I can really focus on fixing myself. I'll decide who is truely best for me and what lifestyle is best for me when I get better.

Grrrrrrrrrr and a half! I hate being fucking nuts!

Anywho, on to other things. Star Wars kicked ass! Yeah, I'm a geek. So what?! I'm fuckin' proud, bitch! :-P

I dunno, I guess that's it. I feel like postin' some pics. I'll do that later I guess. Ta!

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Well, it's either this or crying my eyes out again. [14 May 2005|09:53pm]
[ mood | high ]

I'm smoking my sorrows away.

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An update... [11 May 2005|03:59pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

...my eyes hurt.

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Nooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [03 May 2005|07:36pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

My internet got disconnected!!! :(

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A whole lot of shit on my mind. [27 Apr 2005|03:59pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

First, let me start off on a light note. I had a pretty rad birthday. Mark bought me cheesecake. 'Twas very yummy! ^_^ Brandon got me oil and an oil burner/holder(whatever you call it)! But, the thingy that hold the oil was broken. :( Joe, Joezy, Pat and I went bowling. I kinda suck, but, it was still fun! After that, we went home and I talked to Andre for the rest of the night. My first day at 21 and I haven't bought any alcohol. Haha! Eh, I don't really care. I have the rest of my life to drink.

Ok, now on to other things on my mind. I've been thinking about a friend that I pretty much lost recently. I've been trying to figure out what went wrong with that friendship. Why does this person dislike me so much? What is it about me that this person doesn't like? How can I change, not only for this person, but, for everyone around me? I know the comments on this(if I even get any) will be all like, "Don't change for anybody. Just be yourself!" I'd usually agree, but, when more and more people want to just stop talking to you, it usually means there's something wrong with you.

Well, that's all for now. I'll update later. Ta!

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Happy birthday to me! [26 Apr 2005|07:48am]
[ mood | happy ]

I'm 21 today! Yippie! :-D

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Sick and sleepy. [21 Apr 2005|11:50pm]
[ mood | sick ]

I've been sleeping all afternoon. I just woke up about ten minutes ago. I hope when I go back to sleep, I can sleep all throgh the night. I need to wake up at 7:30 A.M. to get ready for work. I hope I'll be able to function. I'm also sick as all hell. Saturday I need to stay under the covers, drink hot tea, and eat soup. I can't be sick for my birthday. I just can't! That's all for now. Ta.

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That's about right. [18 Apr 2005|07:07pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||| 33%
Stability |||| 13%
Orderliness |||||||||||| 50%
Empathy |||||| 23%
Interdependence |||||| 30%
Intellectual |||||| 30%
Mystical |||| 16%
Artistic |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Religious |||||||||||||| 56%
Hedonism |||||| 23%
Materialism |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Narcissism |||| 16%
Adventurousness |||| 16%
Work ethic |||||||||||| 43%
Self absorbed |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Conflict seeking |||||||||| 36%
Need to dominate |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Romantic |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Avoidant |||||| 30%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Wealth |||||| 23%
Dependency |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Change averse |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||||| 70%
Individuality |||||||||||||||| 70%
Sexuality |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Physical security |||| 16%
Food indulgent || 10%
Histrionic |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Paranoia |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Vanity |||||||||||||||| 70%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Female cliche |||||||||||||||| 63%
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Subject titles are quite silly. [17 Apr 2005|10:45pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

My mind is racing. I wanna take pics of myself because I don't feel as ugly as usual. I wanna fuck around on photoshop. I wanna post some funny pics on here. But, am I gonna do any of those things? No, probably not. I hate the pics I take. I hate my "art". It's not even art. There's no meaning behind it. It's just "Oooh! That looks pretty! *click click*". I fuckin' hate my mind. I wish I was smarter. I wish I had some talent. I wish I knew what I wanted in life. I wish I was pretty so I could just get by on my looks. Like, a model or something. I don't know. I think I'm going insane! Damn, I really wish I was good at something. Anything!

Haha! I know I have at least a dozen entries exactly like this on this journal. But, I don't know what else to do. It really sucks being a waste of fucking flesh. It's so exhausting to want to be something so bad and knowing that you'll never be anything.

I guess I'm done for now. Ta!

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Very odd week... [16 Apr 2005|08:25am]
[ mood | sick ]

This week was pretty interesting I guess. Hmmm...where do I start?

People I've seen/talked to:

That in itself is pretty interesting.

Thomas A.K.A. Tom slapped my ass! He told me he had to give me my twenty-ones!

I've pretty much lost a friend(Dylan), but, I've made some new ones(Andre and Matt) and started talking to old ones(Greg, gay Tim, and Donald)!

My phone got disconnected. :(

I caught a really bad cold. :(

I guess that's it. I'm gonna go eat some soup. Thank you Mr. Anonymous for saying my pics were interesting. I'll update later. Ta!

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I took these at 2AM...enjoy! [11 Apr 2005|03:07pm]
[ mood | calm ]

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